It happened...
just like i knew it would
i am learning that my intuition is NEVER wrong
so why did i do it i ask myself...
i suppose i just knew i needed it
i know WE needed it
falling is the single greatest thing that can happen to someone
it stretches and builds muscles that cannot be built in any other way.
i knew you would expand the size of my heart.
i will love much better, smarter, and deeper after this.
humbled by the way something far greater than i reached in so deep and stole my make believe resolve that i work so hard on maintaining.
i usually am "strong" or "hard" for everyone else around me so that they may have some sort of example of a constant state of resolve and joy.
but i too slip and fall...
i fall hard
i fall fast
i close my wings and dive
straight into you
i show you that you are worth all the love that exists within me
which is technically limitless
i am subconsciously teaching us both a lesson
that we both deserve nirvana
unyielding, infinite, unfathomable... love, light, connection, bliss.
yes... i feel this strongly... or i at least believe it exists and I am attempting with all of my soul to unlock that place buried on the other side of all that insecurity, inadequacy... that overall FEAR
i cried again this morning
just a little
only because coming back down to solid ground can be jarring and painful
we live in a world where disenchantment stains and callouses the skin
making it difficult to connect the light within all of us
and for just a few weeks i was able to get so close to you that i began to feel your light
thus beginning to grasp my own light
and in that... everyone's light...
glimpses of eternity
and with work... one day i will fully grasp that light and shine for all to see and learn from
(maybe that's what stars are... hmmm)
thank you for allowing me to be who i was
and thank you for being who you were
in every aspect
love
j...
xoxoxo
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