letter to u... although u will never see it... i hope lol

Is it healthy to think of you as often as i do?
hmmm... probably not
but who knows really?

Do you think of me as much?
It's fine if you don't...
just let me know please
because I'd prefer if this were a mutual infatuation

Honestly, i am a little afraid... make that... TERRIFIED that i may be all alone in this again

not that you made me feel that way
i am sure it is just my own insecurities
you are just kind of perfect and i am worried you will find someone more suited for your idea of perfection maybe someone that you are more sexually attracted to or someone more masculine maybe... that's what usually happens... or someone with a bigger butt... yeah that's happened too...

If you are gonna do that, please just be open about it
i will learn to understand
Ideally I just want you to be happy because in turn that makes me happy

All i really want to do is just lie in the bed with you all day
or just have you lie in my lap and watch t.v. for hours
or maybe travel to some distant country and share some crazy adventure!

It's a lot like you are my drug
something like ecstasy
everything feels better, tastes better, sounds better, smells better when you are in mind

and i try to let you know without scaring you away... hence the fairly regular meaningless texts just saying "hey babe"...

i know it's only been a short amount of time but is it okay that i may have started (and finished) planning our lives together? (pretty sure it's not... ugh)

please don't think that i am crazy... i just like you a lot

and i am judging myself enough for the both of us after reading this lol

maybe i am a little crazy... but mainly crazy for u:)