circles of unanswerable questions...

its funny how ambers blog was very similar to what i have been thinking all weekend. leaving the advice that i gave on her blog is what i constantly tell myself in order to maintain some kind of sanity, but it seems as if it's becoming harder and harder to not become disillusioned with life, people, dreams, sanity, and love most of all. as a child, and even up until very recently i believed that the greater good always prevails. and where that philosophy works well with me, others don't seem to follow or even care about this rule. people do things that they know are wrong, and know will have consequences, yet they do them anyways. as if to test the laws of the universe, tipping the scales to see if they tip back. doing absurd things to prove to themselves that they have some kind of power, whether it be good or bad... they are in some way affecting something major. i wonder how people think... i have no other option than to be highly introspective and overthink everything, it would be such a luxury to not have to do so... do people physically not think like i do, or do they just choose to not think? but how can one choose to not think? do you have to think of not thinking, and in that one is still thinking... or are they just absent of thought. if only my brain could just be void occasionally, instead of plaguing me with this constant stream of questions about things that probably cannot be answered. my mind runs in circles asking questions of this sort which is why i just become so disenchanted with life and people. ugh as you see... i am rambling now, one thought leads to another, and then another, never really ending. one question leads to the next, and the next, halfway answering one and leading to another. never answering fully any of these unanswerable questions. and the biggest question is are there really people who don't think like this? how can ones mind not be working? are they void of thought, or are there thoughts just less complex? like... what's for dinner tonight? or what's going to be on oprah? and while these questions also go through my head, i don't allow them to stay long because they really aren't that important, so why waist time thinking of such menial things? then... is it that i choose to think this way, since i won't waist my time thinking of menial things? do people not have the same opinions about menial thinking? and if they don't, do they really believe that thinking about such menial things is going to get them anywhere in life? or do they not care? are they content being content in conditions that one shouldn't be content with? which brings me full circle... do people just not care? and i become disillusioned once again with people in general, never reaching their full potential, or being the best that they possibly can, never living up to what one could possibly live up to. leading a fairly meaningless life doing nothing of great value. i suppose there has to be balance, and people have to think that way just like there people who have to think this way. is it anatomy, or fate? lol my roomate andre says that i have a superiority complex, and think tooooo deeply. but agian i don't choose to think this way, i think:), i just choose to not think on a small scale, for to me that is a waist of time. lol circles and circles... what was this blog originally about:)?

ps: don't even get me started on my thoughts on love... lol